TODAY IS THE DAY BEFORE THEY BURY MY LOVELY jOHN, AMD i THOUGHT i WOULD SOME MORE ABOUT HIM, jOHN WAS COMPLEX, TOTALLY IRREVERANT, FUNNY TO THE POINT OF MADNESS AND STUBBORN. YOU TELL HIM HE CANNOT DO SOMETHING AND HE WILL DO IT JUST TO SHOW YOU HE COULD AND NO-ONE WAS TELLING HIM WHAT HE COULD AND COULD NOT DO. I WENT AND SAW IM IN THE CHAPEL OF REST YESTERDAY AND SPENT A FEW MOMENTS WITH HIM ALONE. IT WAS VERY STRANGE.